You want a reason to be grateful? You exist as a witness to all that is. Existence is a real life movie, but the frame is infinite. You can watch any genre, you can choose smaller or bigger theaters. Ones where you sit on grass and bring your own shit, and ones where everything is brought directly to you in your comfort.
This is the value of a witness: what they paid attention to. What they notice. When they notice. And in what ways they communicate that in the greater order of things, places and people they’re called upon to acknowledge.
Wanting to be seen implies you’re not already noticed. But perspective is in the eye of the beholder and there’s really no telling what will be.
Best to live the life of the version of you that you’d most prefer to be if no "fuckshit" was going on. That way, regardless of everything and anybody else, you lived the life you claim(ed) you most wanted. It’s enough to verify yourself. No other person or thing is authorized to do that job.
Free Will = “To Love” “To Choose.” This your own adventure. Play on, player.
Melanin-having (like 80%), feminice (as in dope, not kind), cis-gender (this word's definition is questionable), queer-thinking (this word's origin is questioned), travel apt (I'm an Earthling first) and fashion forward (I dress myself) SSJW (Sarcastic Social Justice Warrior).
I'm your forebearers attainable unreality. *
* Existing despite other peoples BS circa conception.